TEP

OMG! i blanked today!TEP test was like crazy!it was so stressful that im having a headache now!first time after so long i had mental block, i stoned there for like 10 minutes and i almost broke down cause i was so stress!i totally couldnt think!sian!haha, okay finalised ct results, 6 As, 1 B+, im going to chiong for exams, i think im doing like crap this sem, totally lost focus and it’s sucky!exams are in two weeks!kill me!presentation tmr!ARGH!time to study!

dont take too long to say i love you too, the ones you love, cause time has a habit of slipping away.

exams!

argh!exams are coming in more than two weeks!i feel the pressure and the tiredness, im going to chiong everyday in school!haha! (: anyway i got 5 papers in total and 2 prac test!tests are next week!OH NO! scaring the shit out of me!haha (: oh wells!it’s time to channel all my energy into my work and no where else (: thanks people for cheering me on and being here for me!thanks jj for the email, and thanks sunshine for catching me!haha (:

happy birthday TJP (: hope you had fun yesterday (:

helpless

sorry for not knowing what to do, i feel useless and helpless, i cant help to feel like i dont matter.

try

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you’re the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you’re running away to chase your dream
It’s time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i’m not ready

Chorus
But I’ll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We’ve been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i’m gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It’s time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i’m not ready

Chorus
But I’ll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you’re the one would you believe me

try- asher brook

i’m home today cause i cant run plus i got a lot of things to do and finish. it’s like never ending. but i cant focus lately and i have to. oh wells, my shoulder doesn feel like it belongs to me, cause it hurts badly, and the feeling sucks. i saw you today. and i couldn bring myself to just smile at you and think that everything is fine cause it’s not. i still feel a lot of things. thanks s for talking to me this morning, i really needed to hear it. sense of betrayal?not really. anger? not really. hurt?yes, a lot. partly is cause i thought it meant more. but i guess, giving up was the best choice. you made me build a wall around myself. you made me doubt what my future would become. thanks. but also, you made me a better person, more independent, not troubling other people. i bring my own tissue and bottle nowadays. people may say it’s simple small things. but i remembered how you used to scold me for not bringing tissue. and i realised its importance now. i have learnt to be on my own and not expect. good or bad i dont know. but i’ve become more introverted tahn before. i have decided to stop reading your blog to stop upsetting myself. for now, i wish you all the best and that you can find your hapiness soon, since you said you’re happier that way, i really wish you meant what you say.

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tired

been feeling super tired these few days and i have no clue why. i want to study, but i tend to fall asleep. or i just stare blankly. this is super sickening. haiz. i’ve been dreaming for the past few days, nightmares i must say. but most of them is about you. i got so frustrated with myself, cause i thought i was alright. but it seems like i’m still not. exams are coming. and it sucks to be in a state like this. now i wish that it would all go away. the frustrations and thoughts of you are getting to me. go away.

iap/fyp

i got attached to SGH for attachment, fun stuff!i cant wait, but the thought of fyp is scary, i shall concentrate on exams and my projects, it’s so sickening, time to let the fire burn! i cant wait for japan trip and also OIPP in aussie!i want to runaway!

i wish that i was mad again,

#1 tooth

haha, i watched toothfairy yesterday (: it was a very cute show, and it’s sweet (: oh wells!i guess we all must learn how to say “what if”! thanks for the company, i really enjoyed it!baked pasta rules!anw i went swimming too, omg my shoulder hurts!i think my body is really dying on me!whenever i rotate it, there’s a click sound and a sharp pain, think the bones are rubbing against each other :/ damn! and i went to the sinseh again for my foot, no mercy!it’s so painful that i couldn stop laughing!im never going back there on my own accord!haha, super painful!well, looks like no training for me this week again, damn i hate my body!back to work now!

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body’s giving way!

but I’M SWIMMING TMR!!TO IMPROVE MY STAMINA (: my ankle hurts, and the bone is weird, oh no!damn!presentation today was sucky, but i guess, it’s okay la!i went shopping alone today!haha, did lots of things, felt good settling them, now to catch up on my work, cause i’ve been slacking!shit!

to my loved one.

dear nai nai and popo, i know it’s been hard on you, this one year plus, those medications that you hate. but you know, it’s all for your own good. you can dont care about yourself, and just ask how is daniel, how is daddy, but never once is how’s yourself. now that the days may become tougher, i pray that you will be able to hold on, and just cling on. never give up, cause you know that you got all of us there for you. there’ll certainly be discomfort and pain, but once you give up, there’s no turning back. i pray for you to be strong and pull through.

today training was okay, went late due to presentation tmr!OMG!scared but guess it’ll be fine!i realised that i have lost touch, like super a lot. i need to get back the feeling again, like really. i’m so tired, and i think i need a wheelchair soon, my body is like a 50 year old person, it’s all giving way!i heard a crack sound from my ankle when i almost twisted it, scary!haha!oh wells..i just dont get it why people think that their assumptions are correct, but honestly, they’re not. they should get their facts right before speaking.

PERTH HERE I COME!JUNE 2010 (:

tuesday

i finally went back to training, now foot hurts a bit, but i guess yeah it was okay. im getting blur, cause too long never play alr, but i’ll get there!well, i got a limited time to train, since exams are drawing near and also that i’ll be flying. OIPP interview is tmr, scary but i guess it’ll be fine. oh wells, im super tired now, turning in soon!

sorry for everything, i need to get sorted out. thanks anyway.